Autumn is making it's way to winter and at work it gets worse monthly. This month my hours are 16 one week and 24 the next. There is no way through this and still stay working here. Can't pay bills and work doesn't care, as long as you don't bother them with it. such a sad situation. Can't wait to get out of there.

on a lighter note. I have been on JAP a lot. Multiply keeps booting me off. Still I need to get busy with writing. an so far behind.

Terra has set a date June 16 th 2012, for her and Jon to tie the knot.

Today I have to tell my work that I need them to stop cutting my hours. One month it is 32-40 hours a week and the next is 20. can't work like that.

Here are 20 pranks that have been played on the general public

April Fools' Day
The term "All Fools," was probably meant as a deliberate stab at All Saints (November 1) and All Souls (November 2) Day. Although the origin of playing practical jokes and pranks on this day is hazy, many folklorists believe it may go back to 16th-century France. At that time, New Year's Day was March 25, with a full week of partying and exchanging gifts until April 1. In 1582, the Gregorian calendar moved New Year's Day to January 1. Those who forgot or refused to honor the new calendar were the butts of jokes and ridicule. Weather folklore states, "If it thunders on All Fools Day, it brings good crops of corn and hay."

#1: The Swiss Spaghetti Harvest
1957: The respected BBC news show Panorama announced that thanks to a very mild winter and the virtual elimination of the dreaded spaghetti weevil, Swiss farmers were enjoying a bumper spaghetti crop. It accompanied this announcement with footage of Swiss peasants pulling strands of spaghetti down from trees. Huge numbers of viewers were taken in. Many called the BBC wanting to know how they could grow their own spaghetti tree. To this the BBC diplomatically replied, "place a sprig of spaghetti in a tin of tomato sauce and hope for the best."

#2: Sidd Finch
1985: Sports Illustrated published a story about a new rookie pitcher who planned to play for the Mets. His name was Sidd Finch, and he could reportedly throw a baseball at 168 mph with pinpoint accuracy. This was 65 mph faster than the previous record. Surprisingly, Sidd Finch had never even played the game before. Instead, he had mastered the "art of the pitch" in a Tibetan monastery under the guidance of the "great poet-saint Lama Milaraspa." Mets fans celebrated their teams' amazing luck at having found such a gifted player, and Sports Illustrated was flooded with requests for more information. In reality this legendary player only existed in the imagination of the author of the article, George Plimpton.

#3: Instant Color TV
1962: In 1962 there was only one tv channel in Sweden, and it broadcast in black and white. The station's technical expert, Kjell Stensson, appeared on the news to announce that, thanks to a new technology, viewers could convert their existing sets to display color reception. All they had to do was pull a nylon stocking over their tv screen. Stensson proceeded to demonstrate the process. Thousands of people were taken in. Regular color broadcasts only commenced in Sweden on April 1, 1970.

#4: The Taco Liberty Bell
1996: The Taco Bell Corporation announced it had bought the Liberty Bell and was renaming it the Taco Liberty Bell. Hundreds of outraged citizens called the National Historic Park in Philadelphia where the bell was housed to express their anger. Their nerves were only calmed when Taco Bell revealed, a few hours later, that it was all a practical joke. The best line of the day came when White House press secretary Mike McCurry was asked about the sale. Thinking on his feet, he responded that the Lincoln Memorial had also been sold. It would now be known, he said, as the Ford Lincoln Mercury Memorial.

#5: San Serriffe
1977: The British newspaper The Guardian published a special seven-page supplement devoted to San Serriffe, a small republic said to consist of several semi-colon-shaped islands located in the Indian Ocean. A series of articles affectionately described the geography and culture of this obscure nation. Its two main islands were named Upper Caisse and Lower Caisse. Its capital was Bodoni, and its leader was General Pica. The Guardian's phones rang all day as readers sought more information about the idyllic holiday spot. Only a few noticed that everything about the island was named after printer's terminology. The success of this hoax is widely credited with launching the enthusiasm for April Foolery that gripped the British tabloids in subsequent decades.

#6: Nixon for President
1992: National Public Radio's Talk of the Nation program announced that Richard Nixon, in a surprise move, was running for President again. His new campaign slogan was, "I didn't do anything wrong, and I won't do it again." Accompanying this announcement were audio clips of Nixon delivering his candidacy speech. Listeners responded viscerally to the announcement, flooding the show with calls expressing shock and outrage. Only during the second half of the show did the host John Hockenberry reveal that the announcement was a practical joke. Nixon's voice was impersonated by comedian Rich Little.

#7: Alabama Changes the Value of Pi
1998: The April 1998 issue of the New Mexicans for Science and Reason newsletter contained an article claiming that the Alabama state legislature had voted to change the value of the mathematical constant pi from 3.14159 to the 'Biblical value' of 3.0. Soon the article made its way onto the internet, and then it rapidly spread around the world, forwarded by email. It only became apparent how far the article had spread when the Alabama legislature began receiving hundreds of calls from people protesting the legislation. The original article, which was intended as a parody of legislative attempts to circumscribe the teaching of evolution, was written by physicist Mark Boslough.

#8: The Left-Handed Whopper
1998: Burger King published a full page advertisement in USA Today announcing the introduction of a new item to their menu: a "Left-Handed Whopper" specially designed for the 32 million left-handed Americans. According to the advertisement, the new whopper included the same ingredients as the original Whopper (lettuce, tomato, hamburger patty, etc.), but all the condiments were rotated 180 degrees for the benefit of their left-handed customers. The following day Burger King issued a follow-up release revealing that although the Left-Handed Whopper was a hoax, thousands of customers had gone into restaurants to request the new sandwich. Simultaneously, according to the press release, "many others requested their own 'right handed' version."

#9: Hotheaded Naked Ice Borers
1995: Discover Magazine reported that the highly respected wildlife biologist Dr. Aprile Pazzo had found a new species in Antarctica: the hotheaded naked ice borer. These fascinating creatures had bony plates on their heads that, fed by numerous blood vessels, could become burning hot, allowing the animals to bore through ice at high speeds. They used this ability to hunt penguins, melting the ice beneath the penguins and causing them to sink downwards into the resulting slush where the hotheads consumed them. After much research, Dr. Pazzo theorized that the hotheads might have been responsible for the mysterious disappearance of noted Antarctic explorer Philippe Poisson in 1837. "To the ice borers, he would have looked like a penguin," the article quoted her as saying. Discover received more mail in response to this article than they had received for any other article in their history.

#10: Planetary Alignment Decreases Gravity
1976: The British astronomer Patrick Moore announced on BBC Radio 2 that at 9:47 AM a once-in-a-lifetime astronomical event was going to occur that listeners could experience in their very own homes. The planet Pluto would pass behind Jupiter, temporarily causing a gravitational alignment that would counteract and lessen the Earth's own gravity. Moore told his listeners that if they jumped in the air at the exact moment that this planetary alignment occurred, they would experience a strange floating sensation. When 9:47 AM arrived, BBC2 began to receive hundreds of phone calls from listeners claiming to have felt the sensation. One woman even reported that she and her eleven friends had risen from their chairs and floated around the room.

#11: UFO Lands in London
1989: On March 31, 1989 thousands of motorists driving on the highway outside London looked up in the air to see a glowing flying saucer descending on their city. Many of them pulled to the side of the road to watch the bizarre craft float through the air. The saucer finally landed in a field on the outskirts of London where local residents immediately called the police to warn them of an alien invasion. Soon the police arrived on the scene, and one brave officer approached the craft with his truncheon extended before him. When a door in the craft popped open, and a small, silver-suited figure emerged, the policeman ran in the opposite direction. The saucer turned out to be a hot-air balloon that had been specially built to look like a UFO by Richard Branson, the 36-year-old chairman of Virgin Records. The stunt combined his passion for ballooning with his love of pranks. His plan was to land the craft in London's Hyde Park on April 1. Unfortunately, the wind blew him off course, and he was forced to land a day early in the wrong location.

#12: Flying Penguins
2008: The BBC announced that camera crews filming near the Antarctic for its natural history series Miracles of Evolution had captured footage of Adélie penguins taking to the air. It even offered a video clip of these flying penguins, which became one of the most viewed videos on the internet. Presenter Terry Jones explained that, instead of huddling together to endure the Antarctic winter, these penguins took to the air and flew thousands of miles to the rainforests of South America where they "spend the winter basking in the tropical sun." A follow-up video explained how the BBC created the special effects of the flying penguins.

#13: Kremvax
1984: A message distributed to the members of Usenet (the online messaging community that was one of the first forms the internet took) announced that the Soviet Union was joining Usenet. This generated enormous excitement, since most Usenet members had assumed that cold war security concerns would prevent such a link-up. The message purported to come from Konstantin Chernenko (from the address chernenko@kremvax.UUCP) who explained that the Soviet Union wanted to join the network in order to "have a means of having an open discussion forum with the American and European people." The message created a flood of responses. Two weeks later its true author, a European man named Piet Beertema, revealed it was a hoax. This is believed to be the first hoax on the internet. Six years later, when Moscow really did link up to the internet, it adopted the domain name 'kremvax' in honor of the hoax.

#14: The Body of Nessie Found 1972:
On March 31 1972, a team of zoologists from Yorkshire's Flamingo Park Zoo, who were at Loch Ness searching for proof of Nessie's existence, found a mysterious carcass floating in the Loch. Initial reports claimed it weighed a ton and a half and was 15 ½ feet long. The zoologists placed the body in a van and began to transport it back to the zoo. However, the police chased down their truck and stopped it under a 1933 act of Parliament prohibiting the removal of "unidentified creatures" from Loch Ness. The body was then taken to nearby Dunfermline for examination. The discovery of the carcass received worldwide media attention. The British press dubbed it "Son of Nessie." But upon examination, Edinburgh scientists identified the creature as a bull elephant seal from the South Atlantic. The next day John Shields, Flamingo Park's education officer, confessed he had been responsible for the body. The bull elephant seal had died the week before at Dudley Zoo. He had shaved off its whiskers, padded its cheeks with stones, and kept it frozen for a week, before dumping it in the Loch and then phoning in a tip to make sure his colleagues found it. He had meant to play an April Fool's prank on his colleagues, but admitted the joke got out of hand when the police chased down their van.

#15: Metric Time1975:
Australia's This Day Tonight news program revealed that the country would soon be converting to "metric time." Under the new system there would be 100 seconds to the minute, 100 minutes to the hour, and 20-hour days. Furthermore, seconds would become millidays, minutes become centidays, and hours become decidays. The report included an interview with Deputy Premier Des Corcoran who praised the new time system. The Adelaide townhall was even shown sporting a new 10-hour metric clock face. The thumbnail (found at TelevisionAU.com) shows TDT Adelaide reporter Nigel Starck posing with a smaller metric clock. TDT received numerous calls from viewers who fell for the hoax. One frustrated viewer wanted to know how he could convert his newly purchased digital clock to metric time.

#16: The Eruption of Mount Edgecumbe
1974: Residents of Sitka, Alaska were alarmed when the long-dormant volcano neighboring them, Mount Edgecumbe, suddenly began to belch out billows of black smoke. People spilled out of their homes onto the streets to gaze up at the volcano, terrified that it was active again and might soon erupt. Luckily it turned out that man, not nature, was responsible for the smoke. A local practical joker named Porky Bickar had flown hundreds of old tires into the volcano's crater and then lit them on fire, all in a (successful) attempt to fool the city dwellers into believing that the volcano was stirring to life. According to local legend, when Mount St. Helens erupted six years later, a Sitka resident wrote to Bickar to tell him, "This time you've gone too far

#17: The Case of the Interfering Brassieres1982:
The Daily Mail reported that a local manufacturer had sold 10,000 "rogue bras" that were causing a unique and unprecedented problem, not to the wearers but to the public at large. Apparently the support wire in these bras had been made out of a kind of copper originally designed for use in fire alarms. When this copper came into contact with nylon and body heat, it produced static electricity which, in turn, was interfering with local television and radio broadcasts. The chief engineer of British Telecom, upon reading the article, immediately ordered that all his female laboratory employees disclose what type of bra they were wearing.

#18: Man Flies By Own Lung Power
1934: In April 1934 many American newspapers, including The New York Times, printed a photograph of a man flying through the air by means of a device powered only by the breath from his lungs. Accompanying articles excitedly described this miraculous new invention. The man, identified as German pilot Erich Kocher, blew into a box on his chest. This activated rotors that created a powerful suction effect, lifting him aloft. Skis on his feet served as landing gear, and a tail fin allowed him to steer. What the American papers didn't realize was that the "lung-power motor" was a joke. The photo had first appeared in the April Fool's Day edition of the Berliner Illustrirte Zeitung. It made its way to America thanks to Hearst's International News Photo agency which not only fell for the hoax but also distributed it to all its U.S. subscribers. In the original Berliner Illustrirte Zeitung article, the pilot's name was spelled "Erich Koycher," which was a pun on the German word "keuchen," meaning to puff or wheeze.

#19: The Sydney Iceberg
1978: A barge appeared in Sydney Harbor towing a giant iceberg. Sydneysiders were expecting it. Dick Smith, a local adventurer and millionaire businessman (owner of Dick Smith's Foods), had been loudly promoting his scheme to tow an iceberg from Antarctica for quite some time. Now he had apparently succeeded. He said that he was going to carve the berg into small ice cubes, which he would sell to the public for ten cents each. These well-traveled cubes, fresh from the pure waters of Antarctica, were promised to improve the flavor of any drink they cooled. Slowly the iceberg made its way into the harbor. Local radio stations provided excited blow-by-blow coverage of the scene. Only when the berg was well into the harbor was its secret revealed. It started to rain, and the firefighting foam and shaving cream that the berg was really made of washed away, uncovering the white plastic sheets beneath.

#20: The 26-Day Marathon
1981: The Daily Mail ran a story about an unfortunate Japanese long-distance runner, Kimo Nakajimi, who had entered the London Marathon but, on account of a translation error, thought that he had to run for 26 days, not 26 miles. Reportedly Nakajimi was now somewhere out on the roads of England, still running, determined to finish the race. Various people had spotted him, though they were unable to flag him down. The translation error was attributed to Timothy Bryant, an import director, who said, "I translated the rules and sent them off to him. But I have only been learning Japanese for two years, and I must have made a mistake. He seems to be taking this marathon to be something like the very long races they have over there."

I was working in a nursinghome and stopped everyone as they were coming in the door and had them call off work. by 6:50 only two had not out of 20 people. When we all walked in to work They were so mad that I got suspended for a week

Mr Food. Because I love is cooking

The past week plus has been one thing after the other. Everyone I know says the same. I think the tsunami has something to do with it. Weather and it's effects really effect people also. Weither it is the pull of the sun or the planets, everything rains it's effects down until it gets to us.

signs are fixed. I am a gemini in all sense of the sign

This week has been a week of sorrow as well as happiness. My ex, Terra and Kalon's father passed away. He had a rare bone marrow cancer. It wasn't sudden but the realization of his going into the hospital made it all to real to my daughter who flew to Florida earlier this week. Days later she and Kalon were faced with their fathers death. Brandon their half brother jumped in to save the day and make sure all were eating. Both Kalon and Brandon live in Florida. Terra still has a plain ride to go. All are doing as well as they can. On the positive note they all got to reconnect with each other.

As I look around my livingroom it reminds me of my life totally through happy times. The Madona - my mother recieved from her mother, the hand made fish stand - from an ex, log furniture - from another ex., a teapot from England - my grandmother's on my dad's side, A wolf stein which I had given my father years before his death. Even My couch was bought after my last divorce and represented a new start. My husband's movies and incense. And everywhere sings my mother. From the flowers on my teapot stand to the clutter on the tables. We are the pieces of our lives we chose to bring with us. What a thought? So if I change what I choose to keep near me I will be changing who I am. Or is it the other way around Do I change what I choose around me because I myself am changing? Think about that?

Wish me luck July 9th 2009
For awhile I have felt another near me. A knowing if you will that someone was waiting for the right time to enter my life. even saw him in a dream (6 months back) not knowing who or in what capacity he would come into my life.
Well two days ago I saw his picture. Yesterday we walked online. Today too. Saturday we will meet after I get out of work. A first date.
I am on air...16....stoned without drugs......and all smiles. His coming into my life affirms that I still see. Letting me know my house will sell. I will leave it happily. But if this one is coming true will my other less happy one also come. Parts of it is in the works now. Terra is about to get a house. When she has an engagement party if I am right, that night will be my last. Kinda scary.
My uncle knew to the moment when he would die. He carried a piece of paper in his shirt pocket with that info on it. Never really understood what power that gives you....freedom if you will coupled with a sadness. But my test will be if we can change a fated thing by choices.
Getting nerves about meeting him but just opened a e-mail from astrology.com that put me to ease it said.
Stormy,
Welcome to Your Daily Forecast for Jul 10, 2009
by: Kim Rogers-Gallagher
Get the feeling that the other shoe is about to drop? It's not -- so relax and let the universe drive. Things have been going splendidly, and they'll continue to do so. All you have to do is show up -- and stop trying to find the dark cloud in that silver lining.
So I will show up. Wish me luck and blessings, love and light.
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Updates July 2009
Brought my daughter home from college only to find out on the way home that her boyfriend was picking her up the next day. When I asked her as she was leaving when she would be back. I was thinking a week. She said a month. I got her back two weeks ago. On the way home she informed me she was looking for a house with Jon and they were living in Deckerville. Deckerville????? Yeha! The heart of country. Thanks for the warning. So she spent the week plus packing and she was off. Broke my heart. I waited through college to get to spend time with her now..... She's gone. A parent knows you will never get time again. Another change in my life that I had no say in. Not that I don't think she is with the right person. I think he is her love of her life. But would of liked that time I waited to have with her.
Work is fine. Not really talking to anyone. Need time to adjust. Would be a great time to of sold my house. Still trying. Need a deterrent for depression so I am writing that book.
I feel like I am in limbo.....waiting.........but for what? Still in endings. Guess my daughter leaving was one of them. Most parents would be celebrating. Not I. Need another ending to be that of living here in Mansatucky. Want to be down state. Or somewhere else...anywhere else.
Well will spend my day with chores, cooking (doggy treats) and and if I can gather the will to bother "Circle".
Tonight is a full moon. Guess that will bring some craziness. Like Poopsy dropping an apple down the stairs then running to get it and bringing it up to do it again and again and again. Oh My God! he has lost his mind!
Love to all!
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Crazy day ahead june 23
FIRST I AM OFF FOR GROSERIES THEN COOKING FOR OUR CIRCLES SUMMER SOLSTICE MEETING TONIGHT. THEN DOWNSTATE TO PICKUP TERRA / BUSTED CRICKET. THEN OFF TO CIRCLE. HOPE WE MAKE IT ALL IN TIME.SO WILL NOT BE ON TODAY. HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!
Terra just called it will be tomorrow instead on picking her up. so I am making faery doors. check them out.
http://craftday.multiply.com/journal/item/117/homemade_faery_doors
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Mid summers eve is upon us June 20
As the day ends, Summer Solstice springs forward, reminding us or our physical needs as well as our blessings. Tonight and tomorrow are the big spell nights for Love Magick as well as Faery Magick. I plan to combine the two.
I have been so busy lately working on my book that there has been little time for me. It seams that everytime I get knee deep in any project that everyone around me suddenly gets needy.
So today I took the fortune cookies advice from last night. It was wonderful.
The fortune cookie said, "Lavish yourself you deserve it."
Well anyone who knows me that isn't really my style but today. I went shopping for the dogs treats. I came out $100. poorer. But they are my boys. Then I got my hair cut. Not just an inch off. but wow, cut. It used to look alot like my avatar. Now it frames my face and is long layers. I lost nearly half my hair. A new me to go with a new celebration. As soon will be the end of my nine cycle and the begining of "New Beginings."
In keeping with Summer Solstice, Tomorrow I plan to work on my faerie doors for some trees near my house. To give along with my mothers faerie cakes to in list their help in a mater of the heart. I think it's time. It's been two years now. So wish me luck.
Heres a chant I used at my fire pit tonight. It's by Scott Cunningham.
Midsummer Cleansing Chant

I celebrate the noon of Summer with mystic rites.
O Great Goddess and God,
All nature vibrates with your energies
And the Earth is bathed with warmth and life.
Now is the time of forgetting past cares and banes;
Now is the time for purification.
O fiery Sun,
Burn away the Unuseful, the Hurtful, the Bane,
In your omnipotent power...
Purify Me! Purify Me! Purify Me!

If you have something which symbolizes your hurt, you should burn it in the ritual fire at the close of the chant.
My evening ended with a fire divination. And then was restful reflection of my recent past and thoughts of where I want to be going in the near future. Now it's off to bed to dream an answer to a question I have. If I request an answer before going to bed. I usually dream it
My blessings include my friends and family, (here, at work and at circle) by boys (Furries) and my life coming together as I deal with my issues about my ex as I write this book on past lives.
Thank you Maryanne for worrying about me as I write this book. They are things I need to deal with as I close one life to open the next. You have become a true friend. I am so happy to have you in my life. You are truely a gift to all who get to know you.
Here is another way to do a divination
Midsummer Eve Pillow Divinations
Midsummer by Anna Franklin

On Midsummer Eve, various herbs and charms placed beneath your pillow are capable of bringing prophetic dreams:

To dream of an absent lover, daisy roots should be placed under the pillow.

Place a piece of mugwort gathered on Midsummer Eve beneath your pillow for prophetic dreams.

Wrap a piece of wax in a stocking and place it under the pillow. The next morning melt the wax and pour it into a vial of water to set in the
sun. It will harden into a shape that shows the occupation of your future husband.

Oak flowers on Midsummer Eve and withers before daybreak it is said. Spread a sheet beneath the tree and catch the blossoms. Place them under your pillow and dream of your future lover.

According to old English lore, yarrow gathered from a young man's grave and laid under the pillow on Midsummer Eve will produce a vision
of your husband-to-be.

Placing ash leaves beneath the pillow results in prophetic dreams.

A laurel leaf placed beneath the pillow brings out prophetic dreams.

Betony placed beneath the pillow prevents nightmares, the elf sickness inflicted by malicious fairies, and even drunkenness.

If you find a cinquefoil that has seven points (they usually have five), it should be placed under the pillow so that you can dream of your future partner.

Place a four-leaf clover under your pillow to dream of your perfect partner.

According to a northern English custom, a future spouse can be determined by putting three holly leaves, named for three suitors and blessed in the name of the Trinity, under your pillow with the left
hand. The first leaf to have turned over in the morning should be the one.

Marigold petals placed under the pillow will give you prophetic dreams and enable you to identify a thief or robber.

Mistletoe place beneath the pillow is an aid to conception and also ensures a restful sleep and good dreams.

Placed under the pillow, rosemary ensures pleasant dreams and keeps evil away.

Sleeping with sage leaves under the pillow encourages prophetic dreams.

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Thoughts, pet peeves and other crazyness June 6th 2009
Greetings from MMC. These are the Gals I work with. Why are they dressed in what we call Masks (as Bras and Mesh panties. Well It's a short story. A well loved patients last request was to see girls in their bikinis. Time wouldn't allow that so this is what we did. These are our nurses.They go that extra mile. No wonder we are in the top 100 hospitals in the US eleven times now.
Where our nurses and our aides are the best. I sometimes worry about our Doctors. We have a female Dr.who just today went out of her way not just once but twice to get something that a patient requested. But that isn't always the case. Some or our Dr's. just walk right through you expecting you to get out of his way. That's a peeve of mine. If you're rude to me or ignore that I exist, watch out I will go out of my way to stop you to say hi until you are civil enough to say hi in passing. I am one of those mouthy wenches that you either love to see or hate to encounter. Been that way my entire life. But once you finely get to know me you'll miss me if I was gone.
Today a woman who I have become very close to got some news from a "not my fav Dr." He told her she had 6 to 10 weeks. Now some would appreciate that kind of up front info........but........think of who you tell it too. This family is not dealing with the reality of it all yet. She will be the type that to the day of the six weeks......leave us just because the Dr. said she would.Dr's are not God! They can't tell you to the day when you will die. So why do they insist in doing that. So, after I hugged her for an eternity, I asked her what is she going to do with her time left........She said wait to die. My heart sank. She should make the best memories of her time left but she will just lay there cause the Dr. said, so why bother.
I could tell you hundreds of stories of Craziness the Dr's said and the people who said, "Oh no that's not my style." My sister, my ex and I are all living proof that Dr's mean well but there is a reason why they call it "Practicing Medicine."
Today I started a diet. So as I walk in I see, Brownies, Homemade Candies, chex mix and chocolate. This was 6 AM. By 7AM there was donuts and cinnamon rolls on the mix.Someone above us is laughing. But despite the fact that they called my name all day, I never had any of it. Now if someone brings Cheesecake thursday it's on.
So as I close my prayer goes out to This woman and her family. May you find the strength to deal with what's ahead and the time to make memories for yourself and family to remember you by.
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Dairy June 6th
I woke at 9:30 this morning.Really bad since I went to bed at 2:00AM. Way to much sleep for me. My usual is 3-5 at most. Got dressed and made my way to town. Got a coffee, large with 8 creams, love McD's coffee. Went to the bank, a package store as it hit me I should get a lotto ticket. then started down main street on the way home. It's 10:30 now. As I turned I saw the street were clad with lawn chairs all facing the street. There was a pretzel stand on one corner and kitty corner to that was a Hot dog stand. Bass festival had taken over this weekend. Well, "lets celebrate", I thought so I stopped, got out of my car and walked into a shop I hadn't been in in 3 years. The place where I got my wedding cake.......The donut shop. My way of celebrating. Well I came out of there with 5 donuts. Four cake and one cream filled. Took them home and met my loves at the door. My Dogs and I all sat on the picnic table eating our donuts. Demon and raptor on the table it's self, Cody-lu sat like a person next tome. That dog just isn't right. (More human than dog). Wondering If he is really Scott, coming back to protect me. Poopsy sat on the ground. His was gone in one gulp. I am sure he never tasted it. It always confuses him that the others take their time eating.
Then it was off to fill the water bowl and upstairs to the computer room to work on my book. Got the title, "Haunted my Her Past'. It's my way of letting go of the past 5 lifetimes and hopefully make some sense to them. Finished the jacket, and two chapters. The book takes you through my life as I discover me past lives. So it will be a wild ride.
The forecast was high of 58 this weekend and 40-50 percent chance of rain. It's sunny and 62 degrees. But it was 65 when I left. weather men....almost think they have the power to drop temps just cause they say.Well better get busy as I have a date at 5:30 for chinese in Traverse City at the China Dragon and there's a lot of writing to be done.
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At work today May 29th
Am at work today....tis Ok as someone in my family has to work or none of us eat. I asked Cody-lu to get a job, but he plees to old. Too old. So what is that in our years? 6 x 7 =42. Fourty-two isn't that old? So I confronted him.........."oh but I have bad knees". he woofed. Guess that left me going to work. On the way out the door this morning, I swear I heard him tell me not to forget to get snacks for tonight. All I can say is..... if my fridge is open anf my pork fried rice is gone .......it's on.
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The last few days wow May 28
Communication is still bad with the retrograde thing but now we are haunted by our past as well. Things we though were set right suddenly stare us in the face again. Yesterday was all about that. I was working on the computer in the rain and suddenly my lights went out. So I ran for the dogs. Under ground fences don't work with out electricity. After I get them in I call the electric company. It seams that my three month ago bill was never credited. 4 hours later I finely get lights. Poor Poopsy (Micah) wasn't ready for that as he was sleeping inside when it went out. Waking up and waiting couldn't of been fun.
Then it was off for my licence plates as tomorrow is my birthday. I got the insurance straightened around but never got the plates. Had to take off early today to do that. Today went smoothly but with hitches. Got out at 2. Couldn't pick up the "dinner to go" that my work offers until 2:30. Just get it and I see two girls I worked with in Bellaire. It seams, another girl I worked with and was friends with, died an hour before. Complications with her heart. So I left crying... bag in hand. Stopped at McDonald's for coffee on the way through and the woman at the counter took one look at me and said, "Oh honey...no man's worth that. Dry those tears" Well It was worth a laugh. Went away thinking where was she when I needed her two years ago?
Today I had to cut loose some of my guest book entry's. I hate doing that and only do it when the pictures are too big and send my site lop-sided or in this case..... it seams a person here believes I am a devil worshiper and my soul is bound for hell.
Special note: witches are like the rest of you except we are an earth based religion. Meaning....eco friendly and creature loving. However we do not believe in the Devil or hell as most religions do. Hell to me is when your soul is trapped here re-living it's days over and over without finding the light. The devil is a Christian concept.Satan was a fallen angel. (Two not the same.) I have no problem with any religion....My thought is:
It's more important that you believe.... than what you believe. We each choose our own paths. None are wrong, as we are all leading us to the entity "GOD" or whatever you prefer to call him (it).I personally call it "The Universal Consciousness" most Wiccans/Pagans call it God/Goddess. With my American Indian ancestry I also call upon the "Great Grand Fathers". It's all good. I am not here trying to convert anyone. But please re frame from accusing me of worshipping an entity I don't believe in.
That crazy retrograde thing had my past haunting me the last week. 22 calls from my ex. Sometimes he just doesn't make sense at all. First when you truly love someone. It's forever. Not forever minus the time needed to get messed up on drugs. They are your life, not an occasional part of it. And you don't leave them until one of you die. If your stupid enough to choose drugs over love... then you don't keep calling them.....ripping their heart out over and over. Enough said.
I'm on my way up to pick up Busted Cricket tomorrow,my Birthday. We plan on eating at the Aussie place in Munising. Can't think of it's name. Not "Outback"! We stopped there (for the first time) the last time I took her up to college. We both loved the food.
It's a fact that your suppose to be luckiest 6 weeks either side of your birthday and at the 6 month mark for 6 weeks. Well I must be the unluckiest gal around. I went gambling with three other people two days ago. My sister... born on my birthday only 16 years earlier..... broke even. Her hubby....won......the other man....won. I lost $75. First I never bring that much money.Jackie my sister gave me $50. So of course I had to loose it.
At work we had an inmate. The officer was a joy to talk to. My family is a strange lot. Half police and half running from them. I have never ran, but was told once, that I am on the FBI watch list.....couldn't be my big mouth.... could it. Do they have nothing better to do than watch a law biding citizen. Can't travel with me with out waiting at the airport as they single me out to frisk. The last time I traveled my plane my ex had a dubby in his hat lining and they let him pass and frisked me, no shoes or socks had to carry them on the plane to put back on..
Maybe it's because when I heard the government listens in on phone calls for any of the 50 alert words. Well when I first learned that I used everyone of them in each call for two years straight before letting that idea go. It's the don't tell me I can't part of me. There's also the ask me anything but expect a truthful answer.... not sugar coated, side. Can't lie. Sorry. Did that once and long story short, both my parents ended up in the hospital. Vowed not to again.
well tomorrow comes early and 5am is my take off time so I will close. enough rambling for tonight.
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I'm back May 26th 2009
Computer fixed. Had to ditch the entire access and start over. Lost my books, my pictures and my favorites list. Even lost the link to put pictures on sites. If someone could send me that I would be very thankful.
Am work 12 hours today so will be on at 9PM tonight.
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Truly a blessed day May 23 2009
Two days ago my page had music that clicked on without my putting it on. yesterday it is gone. Thank you! A blessing in it's self. The last few weeks have been hard as my computer has a virus. It still does. But thanks to Dorian today maybe it's last day with a cold.
Alas my computer is doomed. I can't get it to go into safe mode either, I have to make amends with the fact my books are gone. Was so close to on one of them. Well I guess with my birthday coming up it will be a brand new start all the way around. Restart my books, restart my life, and really restart over without the past shadows haunting me.
It's great to breath again. Two weeks Ago the calls from Mark stared again. Was hard on me....... all those emotions still there. But in the casual conversation about him being back..... a realization set in....... despite how much you want to help him and make things ok..... I can't change him... only myself. Sure he really hurt me and nothing can change that, but, within that conversation I found closure. I am sorry he hasn't but I can't fix him ....nor will I try again. The 10 time was the end.
In the way to work yesterday I saw a woman get hit on a bike by a car. I was on a 5 lane highway going the other way. She got up. Her bike wasn't so lucky, but it was drivable. In the witnessing.... I thought "it wasn't her time". On the way home, I was witness to three police pull overs and an ambulance carrying someone to the hospital, I had just left. For just one second I thought of that woman. Wondering if maybe it was a warning and not a simple accident. had she dismissed the warning and continued to bike through an intersection without looking.
So often we get these "wake up and think" calls and never take it as more than a "Thank God I wasn't killed". I can see it everywhere in my life. 10 times I tried with Mark. What was Thinking......That's it I wasn't.
The definition of insanity it "Repeating things over and over ....expecting a different result." I was insane. I can change no one. All I can hope to do in this life is make things a little easier or brighter for others.....and it always returns to me in someway. When I don't listen it also returns to me.
Last week Duane was calling me super-aide. Joking cause I had three notes on what a great job I had done by three of the people I took care of. It was weird as My office visits are always ..... bad girl..... visits. I just am not everyone else and have trouble following stupid rules. Duane on the other hand is a model worker...... a drone....... give him a task and it will get done.......but nothing else will. I multi task. Everything gets done, and done right.......... but sometimes not as you wanted them and certainly not in slow motion. Gemini children are just not built that way. So I will always be the different one, I realize that. In my family normal wasn't something any of us strives for. We would never of made it anyway.
So for now It's my lab top as I will have to erase everything on my computer and at the present I don't have the heart to. Sometime saying good bye is hard. We pray for miracles. Mostly they don't come in the way you want them, but maybe just maybe it will for me.
Well I have to call to see if I am working OT again today. Buy that getting home at 1AM was a bummer.
Terra if you read this call me. I keep getting your answering service.
Neptune Retrograde 2009
MAY 28 through NOVEMBER 4 2009
Similar to the natal retrograde Neptune, the transiting retrograde causes sensitivity and receptivity to be much more acute. Due to this heightened receptivity, we are allowed to see far more than is possible when Neptune is direct. This is possibly a result of augmented intuitive or inner vision that bestows a different and more insightful perspective on matters.
Delusional hits: May 21-July 10 2009 – Jupiter and Neptune make a long term alignment. Highly delusional and unreasonably optimistic. Very dangerous for decision making is July 1-3 & 6-7 when Venus and Mars combine with Jupiter-Neptune.
SEPTEMBER 5-6 2009: Venus Neptune
Neptune rules denial! When Neptune turns retrograde, our feelings are more astute at picking up and perceiving the illusive. It is easier to ascertain information about issues that have eluded us while Neptune was direct. Delphine Jay feels that it is essential that we do something about the problems that we pick up on while Neptune is retrograde because they can worsen when Neptune goes direct. I personally have noticed that, if you do not work on an internal level while Neptune is retrograde, you will be plagued by feelings of disillusion and vague dissatisfaction.
As one’s perceptions become more acute, it is important to listen more, listen to the “inner voice,” so that you can see more of what is going on around you. It is essential that you talk about what you are feeling, sensing or absorbing because Neptune retrograde can produce a type of psychic overload for very sensitive people. Heightened sensitivity can be both an asset and a liability. It is important that you avoid drugs, chemicals and stimulants while Neptune is retrograde. Protect yourself by refraining from associating with addictive personalities, psychic attractions, and overwhelming people who drain your energies. Wearing black tourmaline can funnel off negative energy and psychic attack. If you feel a little paranoid during the retrograde period, it may be that you are picking up too much from your external environment. As an asset, this period is excellent for using and cultivating your psychic perceptions. I am not aware of the augmentation during the retrograde period but I am aware that my abilities seem to diminish when Neptune turns direct.